HAPPY MERDEKA MALAYSIA!!

my beloved country has turned 50... old liau!!! but it's a good thing.. it shows that we some how managed to run this place on "our" own for 50 years and may this continue for many years to come..

i've not been very informative on what has been going on in this country.. esp what the PM has been saying or not saying... whether he changed his mind from one second to another... but so far the country has been good to me... on what i know of la....

i'm glad that my education turned me out to be a-okay.. but hearing of stories on how bad the education system is now (eg: certain language test answers were given out (during the test) but not the answers of the other language... or that students are told to wear a certain outfit to WHERE-EVER you go... and not your own type...) is sad.... but there's nothing much we can do except to teach our children the correct thing and just need to be strong with your own principles while going with the flow of the system..

but as far as i'm concern... i'm HAPPY to be here.... not that i've been around in other countries to judge... but i was born here... i lived here all my life and i'm still happy with the freedom that i have here...

so... Malaysia... Happy Birthday to you! cheers!!! oops!! you don't drink! hahahah.....

2 weeks 3 days

i made plans at least a month ago... now, i'm not so sure if those plans will actually happen or not, cause it's just sooo blurry and hazy right now, nothing is for sure....

and as i said before.. i'm NOT the person who actually just make plans for the next 12 hrs or so.. especially when it comes to something like in 2 weeks and 3 days... where if my "plan" does not happen... i'll be VERY VERY frustrated..

so to save myself from frustration, i will come up with a backup plan.... and my backup plan should be BETTER than the original as when the original does not happen, i sure hell need something much more better to make myself feel better....

half of me says that it WILL happen... half of me says... "knowing the rate of how its going.. u'll be lucky to even have a glimps of it..." which leads to the head telling me.... "make your OWN plans... do what u wanna do for YOURSELF!!"... which i'm doing right now... i'm planning for myself....

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*just hope i have the guts to do it when the time actually comes - i'm chicken shit, remember?

writers block

as u all know, i'm practically online every single day, thanks to the family... i thought i would have more inspiration to write and had loads to write when i didn't have a connection... but NOW.. i have all the connection i have and i CAN'T write! damnit!!...

i don't know why... maybe i'm not at that space/position/location where i could write..?? (not like at home)... or is it because i'm using a laptop instead of my pc at home... or what?

maybe because of my promise to write GOOD, HAPPY posts here in my blog - stopped me... as angry, frustrated, sad posts doesn't look good on me or may hurt ppl... is THAT the reason i can't write? i shouldn't think so...

or is it because i had MORE life in penang compared to kl? i doubt it soo...

then again, who knows? i may be in "that" phase.... or... it's just that life's too routine and that nothing inspires me now... esp when i've stopped "smiling" - the reason stopped

sigh....

what's make it worsts is that the neighbour is playing blardy sad, slow chinese songs... and as well recently hearing of other ppls "happenings" is maybe just putting me off.... it's like I should be them... WHY am i not having the time of my life like them? sigh....

dunno la... fck the PMS as well...

being extra on the side

i've been always on the big side since i was small... it was noticable when i was kid when my cousin and i stopped wearing the same size of clothes.... when i was a kid, it didn't really bother me as somehow there were a few of my size (or even bigger than me...) in school...

then in later primary and secondary school, it was obvious and abit frustrating as there were school PE clothes to buy, and school activities uniforms to get and sometimes costumes to wear for events in school where they needed to "custom" made for me - cause of my size... and also its frustrating when u have peer pressure where u get the skinny pretty ones getting all the attention (be it girls, teachers, boys....)

but over the years, thank God i've become to terms of my size, though sometimes u get ppl commenting on it, giving "advise" on how to settle my "issue" and esp when i go shopping... it's only 2% i can find clothes my size that actually looks nice....

when u get older, as an adult, in the working world... no one actually bothers of how big u are, because when u're older u learn to know ppl for who they are and not how they look like.. but when it comes to children, my phobia/fear comes back.. because children tell the truth, children don't know what hurts, what does not.... so when i'm around them.... i keep telling myself, hoping that they won't embarress me about my weight and my problem with acne.. and when they DO comment on it... it just really "makes" my day la.... sigh...

but u can't actually stay away from kids ALL the time right? they're everywhere... and u can't blame them, they're innocent... they don't know why u're fat and why u have that pimple on your face... so i just have to accept it and just brush it off over my head... and just hope they don't make comments like that, ever again, but u can never say... untill they grow up - which they WILL......

a question in Facebook

yes, i'm in Facebook... it can be damn addictive man.. but i'm trying to stay away.... hehehe..... it's soo much more interactive than Friendster BUT Friendster has more connections....

here's a part of Facebook... where u can ask questions or answer ppls questions.... here's one:

Question : Why don't the guy who fancies a girl call her?

so far here are the only answers by Facebook members:

1- udang disebalik batu??
2- shy shy one le...hehheheh
3- no balls ...

what was my answer? i don't know... though i DO really want to know the answer... so to my dear readers, what's your answer? pls leave comments ya! :)

budget

when i was in hell last year, i managed to be ok and was able to save alot.... but now, it's getting harder to get by and it's not ever close to have some savings... and so... i've decided to sit down to calculate and budget...

it looks like i'm starting to see what KL life is about... it's just about working just to pay bills... and not working to save for the future.... and THAT's why, so many ppl out there are finding second jobs or joining a networking group to earn that extra cash and have more "freedom" in life....

but i for one still believe in the "sikit sikit nanti jadi bukit" saying.... and there's no such thing as easy money... to me, to get that "easy" money, u got to spend money first... but then again, it's just my hard skull keeping that belief in... there may be other better ways, but i'm still not convinced...

so ANYWAY.... i still need to get things straight on my monthly expenditure and annual expenditure... and i don't even have a credit card yet!! omg... just imgine if i had one.... i'll be in debt!! no wonder my dad told me NOT to get a credit card.....

does anyone know a financial planner... for free?? heheheh

camera update - lan chao!

sigh...

so i got a call from them yesterday to pickup my camera.. as usual i'm estatic!!! so, sacrificed myself going through the bloody lrt pp traffic and the ppl traffic in KLCC just to get my camera back....

but when i got there.... blardy hell!! the camera STILL had the mark on the screen!! and NO it's not just dust on the lense or the lcd screen... its INSIDE as when u take a picture, the mark IS there!!!!

i mean, i sent it back the second time for what? shiok issit? i don't want to use my camera issit?? then, u all blind ah? repair/service camera konon... u cannot see that blardy mark? sigh....

when i showed the guy the mark again... he straight away asked me "want to send back again ah?"... i was like uh... can't u see the reason i sent it back is because of THAT mark?? ass hole! so yes, i sent it back the last time....

and IF i get it back with the same fcking problem, i'm gonna write a letter... hoping to get it settled... (maybe i should ask kukujiao.com to write that letter for me - seems like his letter is very the powerfull! hahaha)... too much already la... i KNOW my camera is old but STILL!!! it sometimes is better than some of the newer models!!!

damn it!

being human

isn't it weird that a person can feel sad and YET happy at the same time (but of course of different reasons la...)

here i am doubting the reason of me "smiling" a week ago as that so-called-reason seems dodgy - and that makes me a teeny weeny sad cause the happiness i "thought" i had was real...

and at the same time, i just heard that my WONDERFUL piggy has found someone who makes HER happy and gave her the ability to LOVE again!!! gosh... i wish i had that back again.... i'm so HAPPY for her as she did go through a good pile of shit... i knew she was a strong girl, able to pick up herself and to open her heart to someone again, though she did say they were going-with-the-flow.... hahahaha.. right! :P

so ROSIE POSIE!!! i'm happy for you, i wish u all the best, and i hope things will be better and great from here onwards... love u lots babe! wished i could be there for u for a BIG hug and to shed some tears of happiness for u!!! MUACKS!!!

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now back to my dodgy reason that made me "smile" a week ago...... i'm still analysing the situation.. is it REAL or not? it's sooo suspicious!! i could die.com

results are back

i'm healthy!

though i just reached the max limit for BAD cholesterol and may have a risk of blockage of blood vessels BUT it IS preventive... so.. hehehe.. i'm good.. i'm all good!

Gwen Stefani @ KL

tomorrow's gonna be a long day... after work i'll be going to Bkt Jalil for Gwen's concert with Pauline!!! yeay!!! can't wait to see Pauline too after soo long...

i'll be driving to work, then.. after work i'll take the LRT to Bkt Jalil... meet Pauline there and will go get our seats... it's in the Indoor Stadium... so is it air con? well i dunno... i haven't been there... too bad my camera is still in the shop... if not i'll sure to take pics wan!

will update more when i get back!

Health Checkup

last few days, the dept had organised a health checkup where they take your blood, urine and ECG... i was quite nervous as i never went through a health check up before!!! and i don't even know what my blood type is!! hahaha...

so, i was very nervous... very scared... almost thought i would faint (only fainted once in my life @ a cousins wedding! - now that's another story) .... i was the first few ones to go through the test..

first it was the blood.... they were first telling me what test that was available for extra RM20 each... and i thought, since both my dad's side and mum's side are a lil bit risky, i should take those tests : heart tests, cancer tests and diabeties tests... so the total tests that i took costs me RM180... i'm now SOOOO BROKE!!

then the minute came, they tried to find for my vein on my right arm, and finally after "slapping" me, they found my vein, closed my eyes, looked away and they finally did it... felt the pinch when the needle went in... not pain while it was in, pain when the needle was coming out and when i was out and i had the plaster, that's when it was really hurting.. weird uh...

i saw my blood... so much! and it was sooo dark... wonder if it was a good thing or not...

then, it was time to wee wee... omg! i have no idea on how to do it in a cup!! and what's worst is that i got to "catch" the middle wee... it meant that i got to wee first, stop, then wee the second time and that's when i got to do it in the cup... gosh...

so after that, it was the ECG, went to one of the meeting rooms, they stuck paper all over the window so that no one could look in, had to strip abit for the test, the nurse stuck some wires on me and i just had to lay down and just relax abit.. after a few minutes, i was done...

now... i need to wait for a week for the results.. i'm actually scared on what i will find out... it seems a doc will come by to the dept and will have consultation with us on our results and explain it to us... which is good...

it was a good experience, don't know if i could go through the blood thingy again.. but it was a good experience....

slow Streamyx connection?

my fellow blogger KuKuJiao.com has a bad connection and had over the CEO of Streamyx and god knows who else to his room to test his connection.. somehow it looked dodgy as when they were there, his connection was good, but when they left.. somehow his connection went back to square1... like as if, they prepared for a good connection (temporarily) to show that the CEO will have a good connection when he's there... yea right..

here's my connection- i'm on a 512Mbps package... should i write a letter to the papers too? heheheh

detailing

that day when i took leave for nothing, went to mid valley to get some lunch and to do some window shopping... then decided that i needed to "talk"... so since i was free the whole day, i went for some basic detailing..

though when i reached there, there was someone there first and i had to wait abit, but that wasn't an issue, i had good light conversation with the boss - Albert. he was excited in doing my detailing as i'm still new and it was an easy basic job for him, but the end result was spatacular!! even the workers were happy that it turned out wonderful... i was so happy with the result as well!!!

what was done was a wash, vaccum, then there was claying, and 2 types of sealant... the end result was sparkles! like me! hehehhe shimmers! hehehe...

now, it's the after care where i do need to wash as often as possible and it'll stay as "shimmering" as it became! :)

thanks Albert for making it look like a million bucks!

camera's ok

remember my previous post about my DEAD camera? well it turns out that they actually fixed it for FREE! but, before i took it, i sent it back to have it cleaned as there were spot on the pics i took... so i guess it's another 2 weeks or so till i get my camera back... sigh...

have you felt the pain...

have you felt the pain

where you know that there's something that belongs to you

is out there, you know where it is,

and yet u can't get your hands on it?

because of some stupid reason...

and it hurts when u know

that when u actually get your hands on it,

you will feel that the whole world loves you...

and yet, you still don't have it..

yet

(or will u EVER get it in the first place?)

it hurts right?

it's sad right?

risk taker? NOT

today was a misunderstood day, a VERY misunderstood day.... i was supposed to meet someone who came a long way to see me, but it never happened...

and i even took leave for the meet up.. but somehow plans were not confirmed and somehow information was not passed through as how it was supposed to... (i suspect someone was sabo-ing our information... but that's my point of view)

so because i'm on leave and plans got screwed, i had the whole day to do what? NOTHING!!! yeah!!! so what happened was, i went to mid valley and walked around.. did abit of window shopping, had lunch... and i decided that i do need some company, so i went to the detailing shop and just hung out there till it was time to come home for dinner... (sad ain't it?)

sometimes u feel u need the time alone, to do your own things and to get a clear head, but then, u DO need that company, maybe not company of a familiar person but a stranger.. so that u can just talk about anything else cause that person doesn't know u... so anyway, i just hung out at a place i usually don't.... it was good, i learnt alot of things

maybe i just needed this day alone.. though it would be GREAT if the plans with that person ACTUALLY went through (sheesh... *rolls eyes*...) i'm so pissed.. why the hell did i take leave where i knew there was no confirmation... i NEVER do that!!! i never make a decision before getting the nod from the appropriate ppl!!! it's SO not me i tell you!! gosh!! what have i become? a risk taker?? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA... sigh.. yeah right...

i still don't know if it was a good thing that i had leave today or that i had leave for nothing...

i feel like shit

Roadhouse Grill @ Jalan Ampang, KL

The Roadhouse Grill is a bar and steakhouse restaurant in Jalan Ampang. It's a bungalow house turned into a restaurant with lots of parking space. Even the interior is quite spacious. Their famous meal on the menu would be the ribs! they say they are open 24/7 for lunch till dinner about 11pm, so i guess if u looking for a bite or just a place to have a beer, this would be a good place

i've been here once before, long long time ago and i thought it was a nice place... the servings were a good portion and i like the cosy casual ambiance... what's the fun thing in this place is that they give u peanuts and u're ALLOWED to throw the shells on the floor.. yes... u heard me, throw the shells on the floor... heheh.. so it's ok to mess around- now that's fun

prices at this place is just like any other grill/steakhouse place - a normal steak would be around RM38 onwards or so....so it's not like it's different...

cheese steak with BBQ sauce

lamb chops with mint sauce

different types of rib-eye steak

the peanuts where u're allowed to throw the shells on the floor

mushrooms

:D

smile smile smile

hehehe hehehehe

smile smile smile

:D

in the spirit of turning 50?

u know i take the train to and fro from work every single day.... but today was different.... i walked in the station and i heard noises.... like someone playing the radio but when i started to listen properly.... it was the patriotic song "Jalur Gemilang"... omg!!! my jaw nearly dropped!!!

it was not like it had a good sound, clear cd-like song but like an old tape being played and it was old and scratchy!!!! just like how u'd hear patriotic songs during your school days for Hari Sukan!! hahaha... it was bad!!!

not to say i'm against playing those songs but, at least make the sound system sound BETTER and also, please play different type of songs!! NOT looping the bloody SAME song??!!!

omg... i thank my lucky stars that they DIDN'T play it in the train... i would have killed myself... (but nah... i still have a reason to smile .. heheheh)

so.. err... HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAY Malaysia?

camera-less

OMG... u don't know how it FEEEEELS like without my camera... yes.. my camera is dead, the computer in the camera is dead... viewing - no prob but it's dead!!! i can't take pictures, the pictures will turn out distorted!!!

wait, i will upload the pic that i tried taking when it's dead... it's at home, and i'm not at home now...

did i say my camera is dead? yes it's dead

bloody had to pay RM30 for Canon ppl in KLCC to bring my camera to shah alam/subang for "servicing"... it's been nearly 2 weeks... still no sound... sure confirm dead...

but at least la.. call me and tell me they can't help!!!

fuck! got no dough for a new one ler!!! sien

1st anniversary for the team

so last night was the team dinner.. lovely!!! i haven't had a steak since god-knows-when!! hahaha... more updates here and here but pics are still being uploaded... :)

Team Dinner

it was our 1st anniversary of the team being in the KL branch and we went out for dinner - Roadhouse Grill in Jalan Ampang ... the food was lovely and the company too....

will write about it more and pics as well... need to wait for the 3 fellas for the pics...

(i'm still smiling but i don't want to be too confident or get my hopes to high - maybe it's not what it seems to be? so i'm just staying my cool and just enjoying smiling because of what's happening)

smile...

i had a reason to smile, i loved the reason that made me smile, like i was there again...

(just hope the reason to smile will last... gosh i can't stop smiling!)

lil updates

this week, my dept it seems will be 8 years in my company... though it has been 7 in aussie and 1 year here in KL... so the boss is wanting to have a dinner to "celebrate".. we're still discussing where to go but somehow there's no feed back or suggestions.. like as if ppl not interested... then i heard it's supposed to be held this sat... nooooooo..... this weekend i'm going back to see the arabs before they leave on mon... so i won't be in kl for the dinner... i was sooo looking forward for a good piece of steak... sigh....

in other news...

last weekend, the st joseph's church (in Sentul) had a Food and Fun Fair in the grounds - 100 years anniversary... lots of food and games too!! just like a mini carnival.. it was officially opened by Dr Lim (former Minister of Health - former MCA President)... it was the first time i saw him in person..

there was soo much food! the usual burger, kl chee cheong fun, nasi lemak, rice with curry, tosai,chapati, friend chicken, fresh fruits, drink stalls, satay, sandwiches.... fuuh... too much! that was just for the morning/afternoon session! i left around 12pm and i don't know what else they had...

as for games, there was the Dunk Me, light the candle, cannon ball, football, darts, throw the ring,wheel of fortune, electricity rod, golf.... the games we going on and on, there were so many ppl lining up as well

there was a stall that sold second hand stuffs, clothes, art, decorations... and at that stall at a corner, i saw stacks of cds... not any old cds but NEW and ORIGINAL cds man!!! what i got was 2 compilation cds, On the Rocks and Hitz Chart topping hits... and guess how much... RM2 EACH man!!! can u believe that??? wonder where they got it from or who donated it..

i also heard that towards the end there was pony/horse rides... emma and ian had fun going on those rides.. at night before the carnival ended, we went back to church to see the fireworks.. it wasn't too fancy but it was still a lovely sight! and it was just above our heads!

being a tour guide

i had an apportunity to be a tourist guide for the family who came down to penang with me... i was glad to bring them around and showing them my world in penang, the world of great food! hehehehe... boy did i FEED them! hahahah.....

lunch one day, i brought them to my favourite coffee shop... KEK SENG at Penang Road... omg... i just love the food there... and i'm glad the family agreed too!! heheheh... my new converts! :P

far left: char siew rice / blue plates: pohpiah / yellow rim plate: pie tee

bowls: LAKSA babeh!!!

DURIAN ICE CREAM!!!! (i'm just drooling thinking about this!! hahahah)

then we went to Western Road to see Uncle Noel - Andre's dad

KL ppl come Penang, don't see beach? where can??!!! so, since the beaches in Penang are not ppl-friendly (dirty la i mean...) i brought them to Gurney Drive... good it was a breezy day, so it wasn't too hot... but it got hot later on...

then, we all went to Fort Conwallis (err.. how do u spell that?) .. first we went to the main entrance that I knew la.... the entrance i took the first time i went there... when we got there, the notice told us to use the other entrance... so hmm... i was thinking, what other entrance... then i remembered the one near the playground.. so ok la, we went through that way...

lucky the entrance was there, entrance fee was RM3 for adults, RM2 for kids. so we paid and masuk la...

nice shot - i like... hehhe - it's the main famous cannon...

here's a pic i love, the air was clear, i was VERY bright and the angle was just right - thanks guys for posing! oh, btw this is the light house

did u notice the hat and the raffle gun with the lil poser? heheh ain't he cute?

actually, i also brought them to Campbell Street for food shopping, we bought lots of pneah and jeruk.. me too actually heheeh.... and also went just down the Penang Road for the famous chendol and char koay teow... yummers.... i'm glad they liked the lil trip i had for them... though i wish they could come back again so that i could bring them to the beach and more food!!!

brief nights in penang....

i've been going back to penang quite frequently for the past few months... it's cause of my new baby and also had family to see.. reunion, family tour guide and stuff....

so here's some pics that i managed to take...

night O-N-E

night out with the gang.... the night i introduced my baby to rosie pig... she loved him too! hehhe.. i just love to share him.... then later met up with chercouz and edbotak.. we were bored.. so camwhored abit ler... it's been a while since we took pics together-gether...

(rosie - u still owe me some old pics.. :P heheh)

i was bored ok... person taking pic was taking too long...

night T-W-O

met up with an old friend just for drinks and played some pool... haven't played pool for a million years man!!! but it was good to catch up... :) though we met a few times when i came back just for 2 hrs or so..... but in the end we would end up having drinks and more pool.. hahahah... hmm.. my new drinking buddy? heheheh yea right..

old posts

*this was writen quite some time back...

the reunion is coming... i can't wait... it's been a few years since i saw them, the last was when i went to see them in dubai with anna.... too bad i'm now not in penang... if not i'll sure to meet them as much as i can...just hope when i get home i can see them not only on sat but other days as well..

it looks like there's quite a number of ppl coming for the reunion... about 30 odd ppl... whoa!! we haven't really had an event like this... and i hope my "entertainment" will be good and ppl won't get bored... it'll be such a humiliation if my "entertainment" is a failure...

hope there'll be drinks... didn't manage to ask D'man what drinks he brought... hmm... this time don't care if gonna drink infront of dad... :P there'll be so many ppl to drive back anyway... the family here in kl will be joining us too! gosh i can't wait!! it'll be so much fun!!

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i'm on 2 days leave and together with sat and sun - i'm practically on a holiday!!! hehehe... but my 4 days will be hectic man... prepping my baby will take about half a day, then i got to get my materials for my "entertainment" for sat and do some banking and meet up with a girlfriend... sigh... i miss her so much! haven't seen her since i came to kl.. the next leave i'll be taking would most prob be for her wedding dinner... it'll be a short weekend...

i still feel like taking a holiday, this time i got to brave myself and SAVE for a properholiday, most prob be a local holiday - don't think i have the gutts to go overseas on my own... i have a so called invite to go to sabah.... but that's only if i'm into nature, forest, hiking type of thingy.... but then again... it's better than being in KL for a hol... i need my sun, sea and sand man!!!

maybe i'll take him with me and we'll go to PD... good idea eh? the family here know's PD so maybe they could tell us on how to get there... but of course, i can't "fish" for any fishes there.. to do proper "fishing" have to go to the more happening places....

kl life is still amaizes me... the many times i take the train to/fro work, i've been seeing so many types of characters and also the path i walk to work, i pass many types of ppl.. i keep wondering on what they're thinking about.... where they're from and most important WHY are they in kl... at the same time, i keep asking myself... why am I in kl? to gain experience? yes, to earn more money? sort of.... but the bottom line is i guess to learn more about what's out there for me in life... to see how meaningful my life can be... it's weird... though it's already my 7th month here, i still feel like i've just arrived here... i feel like i haven't seen the real KL yet... maybe i'm too scared to look, or to scared to be OUT there to experience it, maybe i still need that hand to grab me by the hand and bring me out there...

sigh.. i guess i'm still the same me.... same ol girl in penang - a chicken shit... from one comfort zone to another... still don't want to live life on the edge...

i remember someone telling me that i haven't been at the most rock bottom of my life... and since i haven't been there, i wouldn't know and understand the hardship of ones life.... maybe that's true but i obviously don't want to screw myself on purpose so that i can be at rock bottom just to experience what life is all about, right or not? - then again, i'm chicken shit... i hate not knowing what my next step will be...