DAY6 - TakeBackTheTech

gosh.. it's getting harder for me to write bout this campaign (especially when it's 16 days long, which means minimum 16 times/stories/issues).... but fret not, i'm trying.. heheheh...

ok...

from reading some bloggers who are joining this campaign, someone was talking about their online chatting experience... as a chatter myself, i too had encountered some frustrating stupid male chatters... at first, being a starter, i would tell everyone who i am, what race i am and whatever nots.... and because i'm a mix, everyone thought i was a HOT CHICK and that i had loads of "experience"... i mean, how could u pass that judgement of just knowing what race i am? and because i'm not a dumb blonde, they wouldn't want to speak to me cause it seems i'm too "smart" for their stupid egos...

so in order to get a decent proper conversation i'll have to "act" like i'm a guy.... though most of the guys online are just finding for girls to talk to.... it's hard to find someone who can have a proper conversation without having to know how old u are, if u're female or not, if u're indian, chinese, malay or eurasian.... after a while i got fedup with how male chatters treat girls online i stopped chatting...

though after a long while i decided to get back to the chatting scene just to see what's it like and fortunately i've found my bf.. hahah so sorry to him i had to "act" like a guy to find a good conversation, i did! with him.. and when i told him i was a girl he was shocked at first but had already accepted me as who i am....

well, u would think i'll be still in chatrooms after that? cause i found someone nice through chatting? heck no.... cause i DID go back to chatting but it went back to square one... having guys harrassing me online... it's been nearly 6 years since i've been to a chatroom and till now i'm still greatfull that i managed to find someone nice online...

so.... maybe i'm too old for online chat, but it's not like before and it's like what it's SUPPOSED to be....

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DAY5 - TakeBackTheTech

i had this conversation long time ago with a guy (i'm so sad that he's my friend) he said that the reason girls get raped is because they wear sexy skirts, wear their hair sexy and with makeup with high heels... if they wore a more covered up attire, they wouldn't get raped..

uh.. i mean WTF? hellooo..... girls who get raped are not ALL dressed like that... u also get housewives, old aunties, children getting raped, and would they be dressing like that? any female has the risk of getting kidnapped and raped, be it shopping at malls, going to church, watching a movie, exercising at the gym, having a walk in the park, driving, waiting in a post office... anywhere la... there's the risk of a bloody stupid idiot forcing u someplace and raping... so there's no difference if u're wearing a short skirt or not...

so, to the men out there who thinks girls who wear short skirts have a higher risk of getting raped, it's so wrong... u should broaden your mind sikit and see that that's not the only reason rapes happen ok!! rapes happens because men can't control their stupid egoistic urges...

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DAY4 - TakeBackTheTech

u know in movies sometimes u come across a scene where someone is driving to no where in the middle of the night and they switch on the radio and there's a show on it where ppl call the radio station up anonymously and tell their probs, something like "Dear Thelma".. but on the radio? but now even the radio is also live on the internet! so such programs should be introduced in websites and forums so that even those from the other side of the world would know...

well i notice that there's none here in malaysia, maybe the topics too sensitive but though there ARE web forums all aroun on the internet that serves such services but wouldn't be also good to have it on a radio station? for women to call up anonymously to let their anger out on air while at the same time the radio dj or even listeners can call up to give advice? at least, this way, victims will know that they are not alone and that they can learn from each others mistakes on what to do to prevent themselves from "them" who hurt them....

that's my lil idea about violence against women using the radio...

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mum sells

on sunday mum sold some of eurasian food at the PEA.... yes i DID help her sell ok... i didn't sleep at home :P she sold Devil's curry with rice and veg, some indian vadek, rojak, leng chi kang... so ok.. it was not TOTALLY eurasian food... but it had an eurasian TOUCH! doesn't that count? hahaha... and of course she sold her salt fish pickle and green chilly pickle... i just LOVE the green chilly pickle!!!

i'm sure she did make some $$$ but at least this was something she likes to do and that passed her time by...

DAY3 - TakeBackTheTech

though i know this is in the newspapers, but i would like to share this good news to my female readers out there... using my blog....

More battered women aware of their rights

i'm glad of this headlines in todays STAR.. it's good that women now know more of their rights in being a woman AND a person in this country, this world. no one should just keep quiet and take whatever that is thrown at them just because u are a female - the weaker sex... i say, we should boycott the use of "the weaker sex" it's just sounds so wrong for me...

A joint effort between the police and WAO, the posters which aim to inform women of their rights under the Act, will be placed in all police stations throughout the country.

hello.... not just put it in police stations?!! the posters should be EVERYWHERE! in supermarkets (that's where most women are), hair saloons, beauty parlors, malls, restaurants ... practically everywhere where a female might be.. that is how u will get the message across.... i mean, how many of us often go to the police station? i don't! unless i was involve in an accident, other than that, why else la i want to go to the police? so if the posters were in more public places.. at least the women will know that there are ppl out there to help them and the men would know that THERE ARE PPL THAT WILL PROTECT them and maybe will think twice of landing a hand on a woman!

On average, at least one in three women is subjected to intimate partner violence in the course of their lifetime

it's scary, just to look around u, that out of 3 women, 1 is abused..... just imagine, i'm with my girlfriends all 6 of us or so... and to think that 2 of them are subjected to partner violence; it's sad and scary... i hope none of my friends are victims...i dare not think about it... but i do pray that those women will have the courage to speak up and fight for their rights and dignity.

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MeiCheng's wedding

so MeiCheng's wedding was the second wedding i went to for this month... last weekend was Haslina's.... i was contemplating to go to church in the evening or the next morning... but then i thought, i'll try to get some sleep and rest before helping out with mum's stall at the PEA in the morning... i went for mass before the wedding... was so worried that i'd be late but i was j u s t.... on time.. hahaha when i reached there, everyone already started to eat and luckily it was just the first course.

so i met some friends, half are the noisy ones hahaha and half are the more quieter ones... though *shy* i forgot some of their names.. hahahah... i guess it's because they were not from my class.... but anyway we all had a good time

as usual the first course of the dinner was the 4Seasons... they had paikut ong, satay (which is different), egg&tanghun and sweetpotato dumplings... then next (or maybe not.. can't remember the sequence) we had steamed chicken with stuffed veg, buttered cornflakes prawns, sweet&sour pork bones (yummy), the ever so famous sharksfins, brocolli and mushrooms, err.. what else... can't really remember ... and of course longan and jelly for desert...

my friends and i manage to catch up eventhough there were LOUD music being played and sang... yes, there was karaoke and NO i did not sing anything! :P was very happy to meet some girls as i haven't seen them since school!!! am glad that somehow we managed to meet after all these years...

me and MeiCheng

she at the table...

half of us

all of us!

us with MeiCheng!

DAY2 - TakeBackTheTech

IF I HAD a camera and managed to catch a pic of him beating up a female..

I COULD send that picture to his OWN PARENTS to let them know what their son is up to

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another bad friday...

yes.... another big major jam... i didn't sleep in the car at the side of the road this time.. i had someone with me... so i HAD to go through the jam... 3 hrs wei.. from work to town.... by the time we had dinner and a movie... YES i saw 007!! it was 11 something... thought the jam would be gone by then... but NOOOOooooooo it was still jammed up from tesco to bridge and god knows till where...

since i had to get up at 5am for work today... i slept at grandma's place in green lane... hate to wake anna up but what to do... takkan want to go through another 2 hrs back home.. sleep for 1 hr and then come back to penang again? crazy... sigh... so i didn't go back last night.. tried calling home but there's no phone upstairs and parents don't keep their hps on at night... just had to test their trust on me for the night...

sure enough 5.20am dad called anna to check if i was there.. hahaha and i'm sure my mum knows i'm safe and not "too" worried about me ... unlike dad.. hahahah.. well i did send them each an sms AND tried calling the hse... but, it was late and they were asleep... at least dad had the idea to call anna AND remembered i had work the next day which means i would be up so early in the morning...

am looking at the penang bridge blog right now, checking if i'll be stuck in the jam or not... hope not!!

TakeBackTheTech

so i came across this from Lainie and i thought, what the hell... ok!

what's this about? it is for all who uses communication like chat, email, blog, websites to use it for activism against Violence Against Women (VAW) for 16 days. yes, if u're a blogger, blog about this issue for 16 days. don't have to be serious deep stuffs but could just be ANYTHING, from a single sentence to poems to pictures to anything la.. u don't have to be female to join this but anyones who believes that technology should be used for equality and not violence should join.

The 16 Days Campaign has been used as an organizing strategy by individuals and groups around the world to call for the elimination of all forms of violence against women by:

- raising awareness about gender-based violence as a human rights issue at the local, national, regional and international levels

- strengthening local work around violence against women

- establishing a clear link between local and international work to end violence against women

- providing a forum in which organizers can develop and share new and effective strategies

- demonstrating the solidarity of women around the world organizing against violence against women

- creating tools to pressure governments to implement promises made to eliminate violence against women

*from Center for Women's Global Leadership

so though i'm not that type of person to campaign bout all this but i am a believer and that i believe that violence against women is as bad as VIOLENCE full stop, it's the same as any violence... any problem there's always a solution, we CAN make things happen peacefully without having to use violence as a method of solution....

this will be my lil contribution... at least it's a start right? ;)

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when ah?

when to start packing? when to start cleaning my room? i can't seem to get started on it... i've been so dead tired coming home from work.. i didn't know coaching someone to take over my job would be tiring.. what's funny is that i didn't know my job was... like LOADS to do... especially when i have to explain EVERY SINGLE thing to do.. hahah... there's so much to look at, so much to type, so much to ctrl-C and ctrl-V (copy paste la that one) and click here click there, so many formats to remember, so many numbers to remember, so many questions to remember and emails are sent and received non-stop...

that's to show how long (1 year plus babe) and how far i have come, in this job... it may just be an "expensive" telephonist job.. but still... for a stranger who doesn't know how the job is like... it will be a WOW to them.... i just hope the job in KL doesn't give me that i'm-a-stranger feeling where i know NOTHING about the job.... sigh.... damn nervous wei....

from now onwards.. gonna be busy...

this fri - dinner after work

sat - work then mei cheng's wedding dinner to go to

sun - mass, helping mum at the PEA till late afternoon (mum still needs HELP!) then dinner with jessica

during the week, one of the days, will be meeting up with one of the managers for a going-away dinner (but that was just talk, haven't PLANNED yet)

then the next weekend

fri after work till sun - HOTEL STAY with beechoo and sharon!! YEAY!!!

then the weekend after that

sat - TAO dinner with the dugongs

*phew* (wipes sweat from forehead)... could feel tired just by thinking about it BUT i'm HAPPY... i'm HAPPY that i'll be OUT with my beloved friends, having a good time!!!

i think, by the time it's time for me to ACTUALLY pack and travel to KL, i'm so dead.. hahahha....

hmmm...

so let me see...

there's a countdown till my last day at work... someone just dumped her work on me and dissapeared for 2 days (just hope she takes it back tomorrow)..... training a newbie to take over my job... wanting to do so much in a short time before i go.... i'm broke.... my weekends are busy, though i feel i'm still lonely BUT i can't bring myself down to that level again ( i have SO much in future)... 2 weddings in a month (quite emotional).... feeling the urge to talk but everyone's busy.... hope to have THAT dinner before i go but i doubt it cause if it didn't happen earlier i don't think i'll happen soon.... scared shit of my move... haven't done anything to my "rubbish" in my room... been wanting to have a nice day out but no ones available... will dye my hair soon... can't wait for the hotel stay with some jazz (i hope) AND drinks.... hoping i will not cry when i leave the door, in the car and drive off from home.... wish i had company for everything... really touched by ppls reaction on my leaving.... i want a hug.... i feel like crying (again)... saw a lovely rainbow AND saw the end of it (no pot of gold i tell u)

Casino Royal

me wanna go watch!!!

ANYONE wants to go with me?

PLEASE?

too negative

i've been told that i write too much negative things here in my blog... that i concentrate and react more to my negative surroundings and that i don't care of the good things that has been happening to me.

is my blog mostly of my depression and about the bad stuffs that has been happening to me? or even if i have good stuffs... do i only report them but NOT write about what i feel about it? sigh... maybe i have cause if someone could point that out, then it should be true.... what do u think? my fellow readers? ( i know u're all secretly reading... hehehe)

i'm sorry, to my readers, for being such a pest and a sour puss.. i don't mean to just rant out my baddies but it's the only way for me to release tension.... good vibes = no tension; though i agree that it needs to be acknowleged... i do acknowledge them... but maybe not as GREATly as the attention i give to my baddies....

i must now try to remember to pay tribute to my happiness.... to the lil happiness that i get...

blue wedding

yesterday, i went for schoolmate's wedding - Haslina (simon, if u're reading this, this was the friend's hse i brought u for raya and u took down the recipe for malay style laksa from her mum)... we were not actually close in school but because we went to the same math tuition, we became close and some how we clicked even though we were of different types of ppl with different friends..

so i used to go to her hse every year for Raya but since she started uni in sarawak, somehow we lost contact and didn't see her for raya. anyway i was glad that she remembered me and called me to go attend her wedding.... it was quite lavish... BLUE wedding.... so many ppl...

here comes the groom... from across the road....

here comes the bride... all dressed in..err.. blue.... and they meet...

when i went to see her, she was hiding in her room, cause her husband didn't come yet.. hahah so, mum and i (yes, i asked mum to follow me) went to congratulate her in her room and went to makan the kenduri.... so we waited.... waited for her husband to "greet" her at her hse.. so he finally came and boy, he looked like a chinese!!! i saw an old guy walking behind him, would look like his father and he too looked chinese! fuyooo..... she got a malay chinese guy! good catch! what's funny was that he came from across the road! i don't know if he stayed across the road or they were just there waiting for "time".... but the gang crossed the road to my friends hse and they sat on their pelamin for ppl to congratulate and admire.. hehehe....

i managed to sneak some pics, but there were too many ppl... at least i wished her earlier... hope to see her again though... i sometimes think that after they marry, it would be hard to meet them again for raya or cny or any other festivals... cause they're sure to be at their own hses or with their inlaws.... sigh... but anyway i wish her well and hope for the best for her... there's always Friendster to keep in touch.. ;)

fallen

not me.. i think my life has just begun...

the ciku tree in my grandparents place in greenlane fell.... no... not the WHOLE tree (though that's what i thought at first.. hahaha) but just a branch.... it fell across the porch.. and lucky there was no car parked there... or even parked inside cause if there were, the car wouldn't come out...

that's our Kelisa we got parked at the front gate!

so i went there to take some pics cause i thought it was the whole tree !! hahaha.. but anyway it was a while since i went to that house... i took anna out for dinner too, haven't eaten Inira's banana leaf rice for quite sometime.... hmm... just thinking about it is making me drool... hahahah.... took some pics of King too.... he can bee so cute at times...

what a week

this week was hectic! and it was full of emotions....

1st

the wait for the letter, yes, the offer letter hasn't shown up since last week... so i emailed the guy who were supposed to email me the letter and he said he DID send it... OMG... so he sent it again and i had a day or two to make my decision and sign it....

tht's not all...

2nd

i went for the interview for my company, and it went so well that if i passed the written test, i would GET the job!! but because it would take a while for their answer (if i get the job or not) i would have to make my decision asap.....

which i eventually did with loads of heartache and tears...

i did the test, and i think even for the 3rd time i didn't pass that bloody test.... sigh...

3rd

i've made my decision, i signed it and faxed it back to KL and handed in my resignation all in the same day..... i've cried many tears before i signed it ... i guess it's because of the stress of making the decision of my LIFE that it got to me... and the only way i could let it out was with tears... this time i cried more than what happened to me on the 1st of nov but, i think it's because it's my career, my life and the BIG move for me from home to KL... tht's nothing compared to that

4th

the worry of whether i CAN do the job or not... being able to be impressive in the interview is one thing but to ACTUALLY do the job...? sigh... no one can help me but myself... unfortunately....

5th

timing is not right, when i have ALREADY made my decision, here comes the news of the department willing to convert me to permanancy..... it's like O_O uh? when i'm going... NOW u tell me? sigh..... if only it came sooner.... sigh... there's nothing i can do now.. i've SIGNED and FAXED.... there's no turning back... i'll have to reluctantly give up my permanancy to ppl who don't deserve it... life can be shit at times uh? *cry* WHY???? why must this happen to me? i've been waiting so long to be converted... and and .... sigh... no use complaining.. it's DONE.... *sob*

anyw a y . . . . somehow, when i made my decision, and didn't have to work yesterday (saturday) i could sleep... i slept well and dead.... which i rarely do.... and it has refreshed me... though i'm not sure if i have found a new confidence in me... but i guess i have less to worry about now...and there's NEW stuff for me to worry about.... which is exciting actually...

last time.. it was all about when am i getting converted to permanency, when will i get into tech supp.. not that THAT's what i only want to do *rolls the eyes*... but it seems to be the nearest for me to start my career and about the topic which i promise not to blog about....

NOW... it's new worries... it's about the move to KL, the thought of staying away from home, staying in other ppl hse, traveling far, lots of WALKING.... the worry on if i CAN do the job or not.... of if i can save $$.... these worries are all NEW to me... and honestly i like new stuffs...

i've done it

there's no turning back....

i'm going!

funny feeling

i'm having that time again, that feeling of nothingness, yes i miss the feeling of being together, but logic thinking, we never had much of that, i guess it makes it easier but still, the thought of it saddens me. of course i want things to be back as it is, but a decision has been made, for the better for the future.

am i sad? am i happy? am i angry? am i fedup? i don't know... i guess when i have other "serious" things to think about, it doesn't get to me, yet i feel lonely that with having this "serious" moment in my life, i'm alone cause only i will have to make a decision, whether i'm alone or not. cause it's MY future and no one else (unless i'm married la, which i am not..)

i've been told so many things... it's really crazy..... go... don't go... wait and see.... just do it.... can u survive?... not enough, ask more.... can u handle it? .. u'll be on your own you know... u'll be home sick... for money or experience... can u climb the ladder?.... u won't be saving... u save more here.... will HE be there with you... where u staying?.... it's your dream to leave, so go... it'll do you good... u'll be more responsible... u'll learn alot........

what's worst... is this WHAT YOU want?

*CRY*

tired everywhere

i haven't been this tired for sooo long!! usually it's either emotional tired OR physically tired... but very seldom BOTH! damn!!!

since friday up till today, i'm doing 2 ppls job, MY own job and anothers, cause she took MC and annual leave... she was supposed to come back today, but, didn't.... so all in all i was doing her work for 5 days! damn tiring man especially when calls are non-stop and both jobs are non stop.... i hope she comes back tomorrow... wa beh tahan liau!!

then there's the decision.... left or right? the red pill or blue pill, to be or not to be.... so i got the job in KL, i DO have the offer letter in my hand... BUT, my company called for the job i've been ALWAYS wanting to do, and have been TRYING to get in but never got the chance... i thought this time would be different, but well, it's the same for everyone, first the phone call, then the test then the interview... which means i'll definately fail the test, AGAIN....

at the SAME time, i'm due to sign the offer letter for KL and to fax it back to them ASAP... i'm scared shit to sign... it's like i'm signing something that will change my life forever, if this can make me piss in my pants, i can only imagine what's it like signing the marriage cert... ggrrrr... *dun want to think of that... yet*

so... KL or wait?

i'll go ahead with the interview/test tomorrow... and see if i still need to wait for an answer.. if i do, then i'll take the KL job... if they say then and there i get the job, i'll have to see the details of it... to make my decision... though at the back of my head i've already made my decision, but the curious side of me wants to know if i'm worth it, if they'll take me....

the feelings weird, scary yet excited... and i only have 24 hrs to make a decision....

am i back?

well, i've written some but put it in draft... i've already posted it anyway... u got to scroll down...

it's hard to come back to writing here cause i have to chose what to say, and because of that, i don't really know what to say in the end.... so i've gone back to my diaries... actual books... which only when i die ppl will read about it....

anyhow, i'll write what's interesting that has been happening here - generally....

up till now, it's my job, i got it, BUT i still haven't gotten the offer letter with all the T&C, so i can't really make plans YET and i can't resign from my current job yet... it's exciting, but scary, what if i can't do the job? and also the move is very stressful just thinking about it... but if i don't take this opportunity, when will i take it? right or not...

lil surprise

so it was piggy dugong's birthday, and we planned for a surprise for her... about 2 weeks before... it took that long cause no one was saying much - busy at work... so only the last few days before THE day we were actually making plans... what's funny, was that the surprise we did for her nearly 2 years ago or so... the cake i ordered was the SAME!! isn't that deja vu? so weird hahhaah.....

and what so dugong this time was that i ordered the cake in pulau tikus, and someone another dugong voluntered to get the cake.. but they all thought the cake was from the branch that was in bayan baru!! and soooo DUGONG!! i never thought there was a branch in bayan baru in the first place! hahhaha... so we all had to go ALL the way to pulau tikus to get the cake.. and back again for the surprise...

the dugong moment of the night was that we were LATE for our own surprise and SHE didn't know it!!! hahahah....

then the next day, a few of us at work surprised her with wonderful cupcakes, but unfortunately she was on the phone, and we couldn't sing her a proper Happy Birthday... wasn't too sure if she blew her candle or not.. hmm...

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY babe! hope u enjoyed the "surprises" and... dun get a wrong impression of me for the book ya...

a 21st birthday

i was invited to Sharon's sis 21st birthday, Bekky's 21st birthday....

it just brought me back to MY 21st birthday... it was great, though certain things could be better... but i had my lovely Dugongs with me, my old school friends, my great 2 girls, some church friends, parents, godma and aunty bah. great food @ Secret Recipie with my favourite cake - Choc Mud Cake. we played games (mum's idea) like as if it was my 10th birthday.. but it was different! which 21st birthday do you get to play "passing the parcel"???? MINE!!! hahahah...

ok ok.. going out of topic here... so i went for bekky's birthday at her hse. sharon was busy helping mum, that was fine, but i did meet some familiar faces and kept myself occupied... but towards the end, sharon and i managed to talk... was damn tired though from my trip.. and i was to work the next morning... sigh...

anyway, here's some pics... cake was lovely.. from EDEN...

Sharon's saying.. "Oh my LORD... take the picture will you!"

a lil gathering....

maybe i shouldn't have said too much here about what has been said in my gatherings cause it really hurt me when i did, and i deserve it, padan my muka only.... u may asked what i said here before... there's no point repeating it, the damage has been done, now only time will tell....

anyhooooo.... here are some pics from Nando's and Swenson's with the girls....

the answer is....

yes i got the job....

i was given some homework to do before he called again to test me... and when he did on wed, i manage to "impress" him... and he was satisfied and excitedly said "come to KL now!!!"... (gosh reading this sentence, it sounds so wronglike) hahahah anyway.. i was shocked, i was overwhelmed, i was speechless.. i didn't know what to say....

he assured me it was a good thing and he started to tell me the details of what is given and bla bla bla.... i was listening but at the same time still, in a daze, in shock.... he asked when can i start but obviously i have to give a 1 months notice... AND find a place in KL, move and settle in before i can start... it's a BIG thing for me.. and i'm not sure how i can handle it.... esp when i got to go through this alone...

so now, i'm still contemplating... still talking to ppl (maybe i should stop because it isn't helping) and do research on my "lifestyle" there... it won't be easy, i know... bottom line, i can always come home and i'm sure it'll be ok when i come home... but i don't want to think of it yet... i need to get things going, start with phone calls with family members, research, get my act together and make that STEP i've ALWAYS wanted to take.... at the same time i'm REALLY scared.... *cry*

i got to wait for the offer letter, read through it, make plans with parents, sign it and then i'll give in my resignation letter.... ggrrrhhhh *emotional*

God Help!

another year....

yes, piggy dugong, it's been another year, and so much has happened. but i pray that u take this year in a new light, be a new you, do new things, do the things u ALWAYS wanted to do but hadn't the chance and in time, you'll be fine, you'll love yourself and feel the freedom that we all love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY rosie!!

we ALL love you!

muacks!

piggy born in the year of the dog!

its still coming!

The Manhattan Fish Market

AND

Sega Fredo's

it's coming to AUTOCITY!!!

YES!!

the test

i reached there early.... there was no place to sit at the lobby so, managed to find the cafeteria... quite sad looking though, but there WERE food la... at least got something to eat there IF i were to work there... so waited for 30 mins.

went to the 25th floor(that's where they were - the building had 30 floors!) and saw the place, quite similar to my current working place, but smaller la... met a guy named patrick, and did the test... then a typing test i had 54 words per minute which it said, "Expert" and they were impressed... i was thinking to myself... err.. because i CHAT and BLOG? hahahah but of course i didn't tell them that...

then had a quick chat with Patrick, it seems he's not the interviewer, the "manager" does that... so patrick said i just did average on the test for networking tech supp, so he suggested to put me to the normal tech supp which was ok for me (as long it's a job and i'm sure i can LEARN to do it..) so we were talking, and he found out i was from penang, and was shocked i came all the way just to do the test... he was so called "impressed" and "guilty"... so he said, the next time when we need to interview u again, we'll have a phone interview instead, don't want to waste your time and money just for this... so which is good... :) he said one of his parent is from BM so we were talking about how much BM has changed... before i left he said he'll get back to me on mon or tues..

so now...fingers crossed!!!

and all this lasted 1 1/2 hrs... travelled 9 hrs for that and anothe 4 hrs back... am i "great" or what? now, i'm suffering at work... so tired..

KTM Berhad

the train (Langkawi Express - the name of the train) was to arrive at 9.30pm and we were supposed to be there at 8 something, we rushed to be there just before 9 when we got the news that the "flight" was delayed for 1 hr.. gosh.. i should have known... after that 1 hr, we went to the platform and waited for the train to come... and there was another announcement... 1130!!!!! the bloody train will only come at 11.30!!! omg.. this is so not good and it will take bout 9 hrs to reach, and my appointment is at 10.30!!! *panic*

but then, what to do, have to wait la... the waiting room, full of teenagers, college/uni students... i was thinking to myself, thank goodness we're not taking the normal sleeping berths, sure bising wan.... so sitting at the waiting room, they had this lousy drama-minggu-ini show on the tele on TV2.. it made me fall asleep on the chair... slept for a good 30 mins.. and when i got up, it felt weird, sleeping in a weird position with so many ppl around...

this time the train was on time, 11.30 it arrived, dad got to speak to some official and asked about the delay, it seems the train came from thailand - Hatyai and on the way to Butterworth, the tracks were new and it seems when it's new, they can't "speed" that's why the delay... sigh...

dad got excited, first time in this "1st class" berth.... he was looking around, checking things out... he took the top bunk bed.. hahahahah.... like small boy.. then even before the train could move, he said he wanted to go to the "food" coach to get our "complimentary refreshments"... i was telling my friends what would the KTM "complimentary refreshments" would mean... i was thinking, maybe a packet drink (which is normal for everything) and maybe a small packet of nasi lemak... note the minimum food for complimentary, it's expected in public businesses.... KTM.. 1 st class... u think it'll be the same as flying 1st class in MAS? .... NOT!!... so giving them reasonable doubt, it would be packet drink and nasi lemak... BUT in the end.... all we had was a bottle of mineral water (which is good) and NO nasi lemak, instead.... one small (nice looking) cup cake... sigh.... maybe they didn't want us to eat so late at night? shruggs... quite dissapointing actually cause i was actually hungry... so we got 2 egg sandwiches.... and guess how much was that? for 2, it costs, RM6.30 omg!! just for EGG sandwiches!!!

air con was cold..... had to adjust the air-con... and luckily i could sleep... maybe i was too tired (i did work just before leaving) ... the area that i slept in, was a bit small though, if u want to turn, u got to move abit so that u can turn on the same area.... could sleep, not that rocky and noisy... 1st class ma...! there was a lil table and chair and also a small sink.. which is good... cause at least u can wipe yourself cause there's no place for a bath... too cold to bathe also la anyway, can brush teeth, wash face.... but don't get me started on the toilets, they HAD paper (which was surprising, i brought my own just in case and they also had a water pipe)... but it was still a typical malaysian toilet... if u know what i mean....

luckily we reached KL Sentral at 9am.. and even managed to get some breakfast at McD before i went for the "interview"... i was 30 mins early..

it's different

blogging has made a different turn on me, it means differently and unwanted things has happened because of blogging...

sigh...

ATTENTION to...

my family members

who's religiously reads my blog
Thank you for your support

been wanting to...

watch a movie... it's been quite sometimes since i went to see one... so instead of complaing of no one to bring me/go with .... i went myself...

so yest, since work is 1 hr EARLIER... no thanks to DAYmyassLIGHT SAVING in some place, now i got to wake up earlier... hence the lil extra time i have after work. so went to cath The Prestige at a 7+ pm show.

it was about magicians and trying to outdo themselves with their tricks and stealing each others tricks. it comes to an extend of sacrificing own self and their families. kinda interesting for me i shall say. it's a 2+ hour movie but it didn't feel like it... surprisingly...

Jack Hughman was one of the magicians and i think this is the first time i saw him outside the X team and have a clean shaven cut face.. heheheh.... and the other one, Christian Bale the Batman... he talks funny.. i guess it's for the character... oh btw.. it's an English movie so, everyones accents are very british like.... :)

well, if u dun want to concentrate on movies, i dun think u like watching this, cause this will get u lost... i didn't know bout it either... i went to watch it thinking it would be abit mysterious and scary, but none of it actually... but if u like such movies where u got to think with twists and turns, please go watch it. i have no regrets paying 8 bucks for this....

maybe i should start going to watch movies by myself again.... hmm.... *thinks*

is it me?

one sunday morning, i had a miss call in church and a message, asking me to a buffet breakfast! OMG! i got so excited.. i just love buffet breakfast... it was from someone from my past and haven't been in touch for quite sometime. i declined cause i had breakfast plans with dad. i brought him to coffee beans for breakfast.. hehehhehe... i replied i said, wat about buffet lunch? (hehehe i was pushing it), but the offer was declined. and after a few days i had a message saying "i felt bad not making plans to meet u after that"....

i was just thinking, all the guys i know (friends or otherwise), they have made an impact and made a mark in my life which i can NEVER take it off, eventhough i want to very much. but that's what the past do to u, once they leave a mark, it'll never go away. but what's sad is that all the men in my life, never stayed, they either just leave without saying goodbye, or just staying away, or just ignoring me... note: this doesn't include my dad.

why do they do that? why do they become so close to me, make a change to my life, leave a story, leave their mark and then, they just leave!! why can't they stay? why can't they come in my life and STAY in my life, why leave?

is it because of ME? did i drive them away? if i did, what did i do? am i expecting too much from them? am i too much of a perfectionist? am i too critical and sensitive at the same time? why can't they stay with me? why leave? why leave me alone?

on a train ride...

didn't say much bout this, on deepavali eve, i had 3 surprising calls... not one, not 2 but THREE! it was very confusing for me

1st call - someone from my co. called to say she got my resume from Jobstreet and want to forward it to the hiring manager for tech support. i got the approval and now waiting for them to call me... it's been 2 weeks, nothing yet

2nd call - same thing but from a co. in KL but this is for NETWORKING tech support, more towards my major (i think so la, dun really know the actual scope of the job). i had the phone interview and the lady said she liked my answer *phew* so now i'll have to go to KL to take the assesment test. wonder if it's as hard as the 2 times i did in my company (and failed). just imagine if i have to move to KL... scary... never left home before... wouldn't know if i can survive or not.. i'm a chicken shit now.. unfortunately..

3rd call - a guy from Manpower called but wanted an immediate taker for the job in KL, which of course i declined. IMMEDIATE? where can? first, it's a database... no idea, then i have to give 1 months notice.. so no can do...

so now, it's down to 2 jobs.... sigh, guess have to wait which one comes first... *stress*... sad though, he's not around to tell me it's gonna be alright... :(

it's funny when sometimes u think your parents doesn't care about u cause u're grown up and think that u know what u're doing and just letting u be and that u hate it when they just ignore u on certain occasions... but in fact they do, just that they are leaving u on your own to learn the lessons of life...

so i will be taking the train to kl on fri night, can't take the bus cause it'll be by midnight i'll reach KL and i don't like to have my godma stay up till then to wait for my arrival, so the only way to reach kl in the morning IN TIME for the "test" is to take the train. it will take VERY long, but i'll reach there at 8 something. i did that before with my cousins. i haven't bought my tickets yet though.

yest when i got home my dad told me that my mum wanted him to follow me to KL, to drive me down and drive me back. i was like ...uh why? waste money only.... but i think i know why she suggested that, it's because she knows he won't be following me and that she doesn't want me to go alone and doesn't want me to feel bad that no one is following me and dun want to feel alone, that's why she wanted my dad to follow me. i told my dad that it's alright, no need to follow, it'll be more expensive and no use for him to come too, and he'll get tired easily. come to think of it, it was very thoughtfull of her, cause she knows some of the shit i'm going through, and in her own ways (sometimes it doesn't actually work) she tries to "clean" the shit i'm going through.

the bottom line, i'll go for the test and i'll see what happens there and at the same time hoping someone will call me soon from my co.

sigh....