my first thought of blogging

the first time i heard bout blogging and was introduced to it by my wonderful Ah Ma Dugong.... i thought.. hey! here's someplace i could say whatever i want to say, let ppl read how i am "actually" feeling and get away with it....

so i started... i created a blog, and wrote what i felt.... during that time, i was curious on what blogging is all about.. i read other ppl's blog and found out that there was a trend to try to get as many ppl as u can to read your blog.. hence the counters, PPS and blog directories... there's nothing against that, in fact i am also members to all those....

then being a Malaysian, ppl talk behind your back.... so having a blog and KNOWING ppl YOU KNOW reads it, u tend to "choose" what u say and hope that they won't "comment" on it....

"waaa.. she like that ah..."

"OMG what's into her...."

"she's such a slut!! i didn't know she's like that"

...etc etc etc... (not that i get THOSE comments...)

and after all that gossiping and back stabbing, u wouldn't know if they still look at u the same way as how they looked at u before reading your blog...

but it's normal to have a blog and have the "want" for ppl to read it.. whether ppl u know or don't know... i have that urge too... but with that, u have to make some sacrifice... sacrifice to choose what u write, say and also choose the pics u put up cause the other ppl in that pic might not like to have their pics on the Internet.... so the bottom line is that, blogging has its limits...

i respect those who manage to have a blog, write everything they wish to say, have loads of ppl visiting their sight AND remain anonymous.....

i guess if i want to get there i got to create a new account, a new nickname and have everthing changed to codes or nicknames... but being a dugong, after a while i'll sure to forget whose nicknames go to who and forget what those codes mean... hahahahah.....

but until now, i think i'm still comfortable with what i can write and what i cannot write.. as i have "no life"... nothing interesting happens.... so..... so far so good... but i still do have that lil lil secrets that only me knows and it would be interesting to have strangers know bout it and not ppl i know know it... u know what i mean? ;)