Friday, June 03, 2005

when that time comes...

hate it when that time comes.... everything goes haywire... u can't think straight, u can't walk straight cause your tummy hurts, u can't talk straight, u can't eat properly, u can't sleep well, u can't do anything... why must it happen every month?? grrr.. i hate it!!!

other than that... i got the car from mum... yeay!!! and i'll be going back home.. haven't been home for a while... hmm.... got to get back to get my "official" outfit for the presentation too... a collared blouse and a black skirt...

got the time table of my presentation... it's on the 8th and my turn is at 11.50 am... thank god it's not like 9.30 IN THE MORNING... but lunch time.. so its ok... i guess.. shrugs... getting very nervous... everynight in bed, i start to panic... i start to think of the 3 ppl that is gonna stare at me... if i stutter, if i forget what i'm supposed to say, if i can't answer my question or if everything gets screwed.... ggrrrr.....

i can say that i'm ok when it comes to public speaking... maybe for telling ppl what to do...heheheh... but not for ppl to judge me.... i guess the two is a total different thing... i used to organize my college dinner and dance... and i had no problem conducting meetings... infront of bout 10 people, inclusive lecturers... hahah even though i was fairly nervous for my speech on that night, it lasted for 2 mins or so... but this is a presentation... TO GET MARKS!!! for 20 long MINUTES!!!!! and that's a totally different thing!!!! aarrgggghhhhh...... how am i to get through this!!!

i really can respect ppl who can just go up to stage... and talk... talk and talk and talk..... i know they get used to it... but still i'm sure there's a tingling feeling of nervousness in them everytime they do that... sigh...

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Don't worry yourself out as I'm sure you will be fine(and you know it too!). Just take a deep breath before you start and avoid thinking it's for marks, though the latter probably best not to think about it all day or at least an hour before the presentation.

Shimmers said...

thanks leyna for the confidence...:) really got to get my head straight to do what i got to do and without the worry of public speaking.. sigh...