feeling shitty

yea i am.... and i think it's getting to me, being "alone"... it's starting to get to me.. now that i'm so called "settled" here in KL.... there's nothing much going on for me right now....

i do get this when i'm bored and spending too much time indoors.... but then again, it may not be that, but something else - and it doesn't help when all u see on tv are lovey dovey movies, books i read are about one and u see them everywhere on the bus, on the trains...

damn.... at least i'm with family, that helps but the feeling is still there when i'm alone...

am bloody working today after having a holiday yesterday - no thanks to aussies celebrating their victory taking over other ppls land... weird uh... on thurs night, i met up with me long lost cousin - luke.... he's "churchie" now... and a wee bit different, though i could manage to bring out the OLD luke i always know and love... i guess when all of us get older we some how change in a way too... *wonders- have i changed?

so we met at KLCC, and went to Pelita down the road of Jln Ampang to have dinner - not as nice as the Pelita in penang... then after that, we were sick sitting there and we went back to KLCC.. wanted to watch a movie but the movie list sucked and we were about 10 mins late for any movie that was showing, in the end we sat at Lecka Lecka and chit chatted.... gosh, had memory flash backs and damn, it made me feel worst.... NOT that it's because of meeting Luke but because of having someone i can confide in, there with me.... it was 8 something and i was SUPPOSED to go home.... but i didn't want to, i wanted to be out... we in the end went out to the KLCC park and thank god the weather was lovely (windy) we sat outside, watching the twin towers and watching the dancing fountains... and talked somemore...

but it all had to end, we had to get going - both of us had to take the trains home.... we were heading opposite directions but luke can be such a sweety, he followed me to my station before he went back - i had to give him a HUGE hug, more of I needed one

sigh.. it was all good, i met him after like soooo freaking long... and i'm happy to see him happy...

i did a movie marathon yesterday when i was home- no work, i watched Derailed and Longest Yard... got it from pauline... gosh, i need to bring them back to her... it's been some weeks dee... and ppl in the hse deprived on movies too... they're not too keen on TV shows - no good for kids so must get new movies to watch

i can't wait for next month! i think i'll take the bus back to pg on the 14th... dun want to be "around" the valentine's fever....grrr.... already the 6th year anniversary will be on the 6th but that doesn't matter anyway right now.... :( what's sad, i used to love februaries, but in this situation of not knowing where i stand, it's depressing... at least i'll be coming home to pg to EAT and see mum and dad

ppl say i lost weight... i don't think i did cause none of my clothes are loose.... and i haven't weighed myself, harlo ppl.. it's only been like 3 weeks since xmas??!! how to loose weight in that amount of time?

done... works done... me gonna have BK with the guys....