are u

dependant?

u know when i started this job... i told myself... go and make friends, if u can't clique with anyone, fine.. as long u do your job properly, smile at ppl, be nice to everyone... u'll be fine....

so i came to work, i made friends and did my job... but after a while, u get close to a few.... never knew i depended on them until they stop "layaning" u.... it's different when they go on leave, u know they'll be still the same "gila" ppl they are when they come back... but when they STOP being "gila" with u, that's when u see the real picture...

i'm thinking it might be something i said (that might have offended her...) or something i did... maybe she's just having a bad time... who knows.... or maybe i'm just OVERLY paranoid that she's not as "cheery" as usual... the thing is she DO talk to other ppl... but somehow just don't talk to me... she does when i talk to her.. but that's about it... she used to just say/make a comment to me... now... nothing...

sigh.... am i paranoid?? if not, is she mad at me? if she is, i really want to know what i did.... cause i want to apologize.. but how would i know if she's not talking to me? takkan i was to ask her right?!

so the question is... are u dependant on someone at work... if u are, do u feel lost, do u feel something is wrong/missing somewhere... what would u do if suddenly that person isn't the same towards u.....

...sigh....