Wednesday, August 23, 2006

i'm sad

i'm very sad!!!
i'm oh too sad....
my best friends who are together but are distant now.... it makes me sad cause they were ... no.. they ARE perfect for each other... i can thick-skin-ly say that i introduced them to each other and they hit it off nearly immediately.... and i was happy for them... i thought and i'm still wishing that they'll marry....
but lately, i've been hearing sad news, they're having some (or big) distance between them and it makes me sad. it's very shocking cause i think they suit each other, they are what the other doesn't have.... i'm very sad....
i don't know what has happened or who is to blame, but they are mature enough to get through this... i really pray so.... i say communication will solve it, but who am i to say that? i'm not in a perfect relationship and not a good example either... and how much communication is in it, it's still not enough.... there's always sacrifices... and at the same time there must be acknowledgements of those sacrifices.... and also the other moral hoo haa words...
sigh....
dia has opinions and these opinions are all based on dia experience over the years. it made dia more matured and more responsible. and i look up to dia alot... dia has taught me alot.... for my useless whinning over useless things, dia has put some sense into me. i was given a different view of things and have known more than what i could know on my own. i'm very grateful for knowing dia. dia was my confidant, mate, a shoulder to "cry" on... i was AND still am very comfortable talking to dia about every single thing... and i meant EVERY single thing. though i miss our times chatting away but when they got together i was extremely glad. i am glad that dia can share dia life with someone.... i'm glad that i've gotten to know dia
and
for dia, though at first i didn't know much bout dia but dia was very friendly. we became instant friends and had a good laugh all the time. though there were some dark school years we could relate cause i had my rebel years too. when i introduced dia to dia, i didn't expect them to have a thing for each other, but the instant i sort of knew, i was glad that it was both of them and not someone else. dia have been there to listen to my talks... talks i needed someone to hear and dia was great to give some feed back bout it. especially giving me obvious answers that i already know but choose to ignore because i didn't like it. i really appreciate that.
we hung out alot, the 3 of us, and for me we always had a good time. we'd go to some places to hang out, or for snacks.. or for dinner... or just hang out at dia place to talk and watch tv... i would most of the time drive them and it's a really nice feeling that ppl actually take u in consideration.... i always enjoy hanging out with them... it's sad to know that they are going through some bad times and i really hope it's just a phase. it'll be hearbreaking if its not and it will be sad.... i love u guys u know.. individually and together....
did i say i was sad?
yes, i'm sad.... :(

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