it's all on ones self

yes, u can hope ofr your friends to get u in a better race, but it's all in it for their own.... maybe u're not good enough, and they don't help... giving excuses like it's hard to get u in because of other better competitors, but if they really want to help u, they can.... sigh, i guess i'm not good enough...

opportunities are there, it's obvious... but it's whether u are strong enough to go out there to take it, grab it... u can't depend on other ppl to help u... it's all u... u fail because of u, u succeed because of u....

oohh everyone will say that they'll help, they say it with such feelings, but it's obvious that they just want to make u feel good...... and that's about it, they don't eventually.... the most they can do is tell u where the races are... they'll bring u to the race.. but in the end it's up to u (again) to sign up for it or not...

though i'm new in racing, but the stress is too much for me.... maybe i'm in the wrong kind of race? i do have my goals and trophies that i want, but it's way far far from what i was training for....

sigh....

how do u survive in a race that u have trained for but is not passionate about?