again

yea i'm feeling that emptiness again but this time it's a lil bit different, i feel that i'm missing something... not someone.. but something...

i miss doing things i used to do, things i love doing or long to do... but i can't seem to point it out what exactly i miss... or maybe i'm just bored or frustrated with my life at this moment though there's nothing for me to complain about. everything is fine.. work's fine... friends wonderful... family ok la... bf don't want to talk about it.... so i shouldn't be feeling what i'm feeling now....

maybe i should go back to my art and just draw/colour to my liking without thinking if other ppl think its nice or not... or maybe i should do a lil bbq in my back yard.. just for fun, just for 3 pieces of chicken.. (yes i did that before... crazy right?) or take up SEWING!! hahahahah yea right!!!! or am i missing the sun and sea?

sigh....

i just feel so restless yet i'm too tired to do anything... the body and the mind can sometimes be 2 entities (and maybe the hands too).... one maybe tired and yet the other is up and ready to do anything... i guess now my minds rebelling of not doing much and want to get running again?

oh well guess i just need a good nights sleep .. haven't for the past week...

or maybe should i learn shoduko? (or what's it called?) .....