i'm single

(and maybe die a spinster) or at least until he and i have contact... i've tried calling but he's too busy (or sleeping) to answer my calls, and he's too busy to call me either... why? i don't know.. as far as i know he has relatives coming over so.... haven't been talking to him properly for the past week to know exactly what is happening.

i'll hold on as long as i can but it's hard... we've always spoken to each other every single day... even though it might be 10 mins or so, but we ALWAYS speak to each other EVERYDAY.... but now.... i don't know if i can get used to this, to not talking to him....

i don't want to be pushy or be the nagging gf... but still... i'm(we) so used to talking to each other, so when there is a gap, i start to panic, get angry, anxious, self consious.... it's the hardest when i don't know what's the reason for that gap... sigh....

so till i hear from him, i'm single....

*cry cry cry*