breathing....

u know u breathe without any effort because it happens automatically... but when u have problems u will know how important that is and that u cannot take it for granted... like when u are in water, there's always the risk of drowning eventhough u can be the best swimmer in the world.. and when u are sick - like me... u will feel u died every morning....

yes, every morning for the past week, my air supply gets cut off when i get up... and unfortunately, i have to "force" myself to cough hard to clear the passage thus waking up the whole hse... i feel so horrible for waking the family.. i mean, i try to be quiet but i'm like without air and i DO need to forcely cough to clear the passage... sigh

it's been 2 nights since i went to the docs to breathe through the machine/mask for about 5 mins or so... it did help abit.. but it's only been twice... we'll see what happens tonight/tom morning....

gosh.. this is the worst cough i ever had.. my friend said it's "stress"... but i can't think of anything that could stress me out... everything is fine here... but then again... who knows right? it could be sub-consious mind that's stressed! hahahah

just wished and hope it goes away.... the thing is.. i cough less when i'm NOT talking.. but with the job i'm in.... no choice... slower the cough will go... sigh....

(but i LOVE my hair!!! hehehe)