it's a need now

i bloody NEED a car right now.... i need a life... i need to be out!

been reading

been reading this book.... and so far so good... advices are solid but it all boils down to if I want to do it..... i know it's all about me, what will I do, what i SHOULD do... but i can't do this alone, i can't do this on my own....

i'm NOT far away

just because i'm not 10 mins from u, doesn't mean i'm far away, being in KL, EVERYTHING is bloody far.... and also i'm NOT in penang! i'm here with u...in...KL... so doesn't that mean anything? and not to say i want to meet up E V E R Y D A Y !!! sigh....

u asked me to be your breakup buddy, but look who's getting phone calls and dates and sms 24/7? and u're telling me what to do? it looks like I'M the one who needs a breakup buddy, and no one is one

u told me some hints, some ways but u need to be there with me, to see that i ACTUALLY do it, but u're not....

i think...

i think i'll go bra shopping and slipper shopping....

(bloody slipper is as bald as a baby and i fell, now half of one of my butt is black with blue black....)

finally the weekend...

yes, haven't been resting since i came back from penang on sunday.... now, it's the weekend. still at work though, q closed, so just checking some mails and blogging....

minds been confused.... i don't know if i'm contented of the situation that i'm in or... not.... i just found out that my gf has/is going out with a guy.... haven't spoken to her about it but its good that she's doing what she's doing - looking forward... as for me.... still pinning and at the same time, not pinning, but i guess i'm just pinning for some company and till now i haven't had any..... its sucky but there's nothing much i can do, i don't have a social life here in kl.... i can't go out, i can't bring ppl out, no one brings me out.....

it's heartwarming reading my usual blogs which gives me warmth of familiarity, like how i was before, but the difference is that i can't upload my pics and spend as much time online like i always do.... was thinking of going back to chatting but u can't really chat in the office do you o_O

sigh... better go now before i talk cock..... don't want to indicate anything on anyone or myself....

i'm not THAT bad, ok.... i'm ok here in KL... really..... trust me.... i'm not suicidal.. yet

no more holidays

it looks like i "owe" the company 1 day of annual leave... cause saturdays leave were screwed, no one knew we had to apply for leave for saturday if we wanted to not work on a saturday... so since i only applied for thurs and fri, they HAD to give me AL for saturday... and since i DID NOT have enough AL, i'm "owing" them.....

sigh... wonder if i have any AL for easter...... that's in april right?

my trip back was good... manage to meet up briefly with ppl close with my heart and did a good share of drinking ;) and well also found out interesting news.....i still wonder if he knew i was back... yes, i haven't spoken to him since..christmas..sad uh.. ALSO got my first ang pau from married Simon! hahhaha.... well thanks to him for coming over to BM to see me! if not, i would have to go to penang to see him! hahahah.. and sadly that will be the last time i'll be seing him, he's not sure when he'll be back.... he's gonna start a family, start finding a job... and all that... but it was nice to see him again...

haven't rested properly since i got back from penang.... reached home in gombak about 9+ pm on sunday and have been getting up early eversince..... just hope i don't feel sick this weekend....

have been feeling weird...emotionally that is.... it's like i'm happy, yet i'm sad, i feel i'm with ppl, yet i feel lonely... but one thing for sure, i haven't been "talking".... and knowing me, i "need" to talk... talk without censoring myself, talk without choosing my words (foul or not), talk without thinking.... i did briefly though had that type of talk... but having one night of that... it's not enough.... but i'm glad i had that chance....

i guess KL is starting to get to me... OR... (i hope this isn't it) that i'm starting to feel homesick? .... nah.... i don't think so.... or issit? hmm......

is the flame burning?

it can't burn cause the flame is burning on something else.....

sick

omg..... just because i had 2 late nights, i'm getting a cold! i'm such a wuss man!.. sheesh.....

i had an invite to go to Bagan last night and i didn't go because i was feeling horrible! i started to feel like that after lunch..... i was.. damn! it can't be!! it's been only 2 bloody late nights! and u give me a cold! shit.... so eventhough i LONGED to get into Bagan, i had to say NO cause i couldn't risk getting sick going back to KL and back to work on monday... in my line of job, getting a flu is as bad as a broken leg- u can't walk.... u get a flu- u can't talk!

went to chia my parents to dinner, went to Manhattan Fish Market and i didn't really enjoy it, i prefer Fish and CO. MUCH MUCH BETTER... don't think i'll ever go back there again.... then later, i was feeling worst.... so i slept.... but my sleeping habits has changed, i sleep very lightly, and can't sleep well, i get up to any noise and when i do that, i can't fall asleep immediately, so just imagine how tired i'll be the next day.... or damnit! i'm not even used to to my bed anymore! *cry*

tried to sleep in, but couldn't.... my head was awake and it couldn't just leave me alone... i had to get up... it was also HOT here in penang.. so... no choice i had to get up....

stayed home today, though i did go out to get a hair cut... and tried to find for my rojak man... unfortunately he went for his cny hol since i came back... been going to his spot to find him since i came back, but he wasn't there..... *cry* i've been craving for his rojak since i left... and now, i'm leaving without his rojak! sad.....

so, will be going to church later, and having a dinner at home with Amway Yee Sang my dad bought... though there won't be any raw fish la... hahhaha... will be having sharon over with us cause i haven't seen her yet.... and later, i'll be going out for a movie! i can't wait...

sadly, tomorrow i'll be leaving for KL..... I D O N ' T W A N T T O G O ....

coming back home

it's weird... that i was always in penang and i didn't understand the term "going home" before... but now, i have... it's been nearly over a month being in kl and never did get home till now.... there was 2 reasons for coming home... one-to get more stuff back to kl and two-for cny and also to see my ppl....

good to see mum and dad again, loads to talk about... funny how much can happen just being 1 month away... just imagine if i don't get back in 6 months??!!!

i reached home a lil after midnight, and the next day was packed! i did my overdue banking and by the time i was done, i was lil late for my date with rosie posie! i fetched her from work and headed straight to TGI Friday! hahaha... we said we'd have tea... but i didn't know she meant THAT tea! hahahha... so i ordered a very long island tea! we didn't eat much cause there was a dinner to go to later... met up with simon, trevor and cyn... supposed to meet up with cher and ed but they had other plans.. though they DID meet us at the makan place later after we finished our dinner....

we went to Karikudi's.... i think that's how u spell it... it's indian food from the chettiar clan situated in the Market Street area in penang... pics.. well, i got to get them from rosie... didn't take pics on my camera, wanted to spend time talking to ppl instead of taking pics... so rosie!!! dun forget to send me those pics!!! so we had briani mutton, chicken with crabs and squid! yummy.... it's really different from the normal indian food we always eat.... just wonder why we didn't come to this place before! it's lovely!!!

then after that, we met simon's german friend-dirk at Beetlenut... it's a beer, hang out place in town itself... went there for some drinks... though i already had a headache from the tea i had at TGI Fridays.... hehehe... i'm getting old... and talking bout old.... i felt sooo tired and yawning non stop... and i thought it was 1 or 2 am!!... but infact, it was only 11.30pm!!! goodness!! what has happened to me? what happened to my late nights? sad man... sad....

so i drove back and reached home bout 12 something.... got shopping plans with mum tomorrow... another LONG day.....

not sure if i put these up before...couldn't find in my archives...

followed the people to the pool one day, i didn't feel like swimming (weird isn't it? i NEVER say no to swimming... but then again... i really wasn't feeling like it).... so just thought i'd take my camera and take a few shots.... didn't really get any inspirations... i did take some of the surroundings with my favourite angle and what nots... but still, pics didn't come out as how i thought it would... but anyway, here are some of the peeps in the pool... really not sure if i already put up the pics before..

here's ian...
here's emma

the love birds, andre and carol

ahahah u must be wondering what the hell is this shot about? well, we were just lazing around watching tv and i noticed that all our feet were like that, so the camera was just nearby and i quickly took a shot.... boy, were they annoyed! hahahah....

as promised....

here's just some pics i took off and on....

a boss of another dept came around on the 13th giving out these beautiful roses to the girls for valentine's day. we each had one, the other rose in the pic is one of the girls, she needed to tumpang "water" for the rose... aint those lovely? the petals are huge, the red is wonderful and that's you call a flower!!! unfortunately it costs a bomb too... but bosses are $$$ so.... i don't think they feel it... :) yup that monitor is one out of TWO flat panels that i'm using from hell, and yea the name up there is the brand of the products that we're supporting....

here's andre's mum, she visited us one weekend and it was good to meet up with her again...

so this is a farewell dinner for the white guy (standing at the back with brown stripes)... he came from aussie to train the newbies.... his name... Zoran... weird right? hahha.. but anyway, cool guy but somehow, some ppl think he's "dodgy".... since he left, it's the teams word... "dodgy".... hahahah... and i think it's not even an australian slang? (or am i wrong?) the whole team's not in the pic.... as u know it's very hard to get the whole team to come out for a dinner... good outing, managed to get to know more of the team.... fun bunch of ppl i tell u!!!

happy family! they were going out for a wedding dinner so decided to take a pic.... it was also Emma's birthday! she turned 9! earlier we went to church, then i helped carol to prepare lunch, she had friends and family coming over... so we did pizzas and spaghetti and cake... lovely! and emma had her friends over to play.... we were all so tired with the hoo haa, i went to take a nap.... then when i got up, they were getting ready for the dinner... so decided to take a pic since i was too busy during lunch!

loosing readers

yea.. i know... since i started working in KL, i haven't been blogging and without much pics.... i managed to look at my stats and i'm only getting bout 6 ppl reading everyday... and..well... i used to have about 20+ a day....

oh well.... i can't complain cause i AM not updating much....

sorry guys...

i'll splill everything when i'm home.. dun worry.... ;)

i'm coming home!

yes... tomorrow after work, i'll be taking the 8.30pm bus and i'll reach home by midnight or something... can't wait!!!...

:)

finally got paid!

being in a call centre... when things are not done... we'll always be persistant on the phone so that the agents WILL get things done.... so since i've not been LONG enough in a call centre environment, my boss called both banks... so it seems shitibank DID send the check on the 2nd and had a slip signed by dillydallybank to say that they DID receive the bloody check... so the problem was at dillydally.... they just held on to my cheque and NEVER DID anything to it.... so boss called bloody dillydallybank and screwed them.... and the next moment, my boss told me to check my balance... AND it was in!!!

i mean.... if they had received the cheque on the 2nd.... then... process it and bank in ler... why wait till the 8th? till someone calls up and screws u? just because i never had that much money banked into that account, doesn't mean u need to dillydally my money right? ... A N D.... it seems shitibank and dillydallybank does not have any ... whatchamacallit... MOU or partnership.... tht's why it was so complicated....

so now... i've gotten my pay.... but i've opened another bank account which is just downstairs at my building and i gave my new acc number to payroll so that next months pay will be in there... sheesh..... just hope with this new bank, there won't be any probs.... sigh...

tired

*random rants during lunch*

i don't know why but i feel tired.. tired bout what? well... maybe the job... the stress...the 6 days of work... the traveling.. the area... the whole picture... MAYBE, only MAYBE.... am not sure what exactly....

i can't wait for next week... am taking the bus back after work on wed... and i'll reach home at midnite... yeay!!!! and on thurs!! me meeting up with the dugongs!!! for nasi bryani!!! O_O yeay!!!!

u know what, i'm not home sick... yet.. is that bad? hmmm.... all i'm missing is the food.. and YES my ppl there too also la... u all don't hold it against me ya... i miss u all... really! :)

i STILL don't have my pay... spoke to Alliance, they said they didn't get anything for me.... payroll spoke to citibank... they'll call them back today... hope everythings ok... sigh

how's the weather....

how is it like in penang ppl?

here in KL... it's weird.... walking on the streets at 6.30am... freaking cold - cold winds.... not the lame type but the big big type where your hair goes everywhere and skirts (if u're wearing skirts) would fly.... (stop gawking guys!) and the wind dies down when i reach town at 7.30 am, only lame wind.... then i wouldn't know how the weather is like for the whole day... just a lil hint from lunch which will be very bright and hot but i'm not sure if there's wind.... then at 5 something, that's when i come out from the office, the wind starts.... and it continues to blow till at night.... and IF i stay out late and come back on my own at 8+pm or 9+pm, walking on the street back home is as freaking cold as it was at 6.30am.....

* which is good... i like wind... i like cold.... am NOT complaining here... :)

so, how's penang like?

the year of the pig

.. this year is the year of the pig right? i don't know if it's the pigs fault but i feel that this year is gonna be full of surprises and also LOTS of heartache.. it all started late last year and unfortunately, it's still going on... for myself, for my girls too! it's never ending!... the pain doesn't stop and i don't think it'll stop any sooner.... the least also, one WHOLE fcking year.... we'll be lucky if we can move on earlier than that....

it's been since nov and i STILL don't know where i stand.... - are we in or out....

on other stuffs

went to payroll today to check bout my pay, good news and bad.... good news- they have the CORRECT bank details.... bad news- my account is in PENANG... soooo..... it takes 5 freaking working days to clear the money PLUS, 26th was a friday with the weekend AND yesterday being a public holiday - i'll only get my pay either coming monday or tuesday! *cry*

i'm not getting PAID!

OMG!!! everyone has gotten their pay and NOT I!!! how can that be!!! is it because it's a penang account? like duhh.. i don't think that's the reason... what i'm afraid is that i may have given them the wrong account number.... no.... in the form they did not ask to photostat the bank book or give a copy of a bank statement... i just had to w r i t e the account number in a "box".... sigh.... i just hope i get my pay tomorrow.... if not.... die man!!! i'll also have to speak to my manager bout it... that is IF i can get hold of him..... oh man!! no pay!!!! EVEN hell paid my dec OT on time! sheesh!!!

today's Thaipusam and everyone's enjoying their hol.. and for KL ppl, it's Federal Day... i guess their just jealous that we have Thaipusam holiday and the KL ppl don't... hahahah... so i went to work alone, yes, Andre is OFF today... and the bus was empty and the train too... but i fear for my way back... cause Terminal Putra is where ppl get off to go to Batu Caves... imagine the ppl... and the SMELL!!! noooooo....... just hope pauline will be free to meet me after work....

i can't wait for my lil hol back home... come to think of it, eventhough it's 4 days... but have so much to do, so many ppl to meet!!... but it's a nice feeling....

on my lunch break now.....

DAMN!!! no pay!!!!